I know, He is going to die

It's been my long running thoughts...

It was my 3rd semester exams time. Standing frustrated in Avadi railway station after writing the toughest exam during my college - OOPS paper. I hardly got two digits in my OOPS class test. So, expecting some miracle to happen in my semester exam. Kicking myself hard, wondering what to respond to my dad when he inquire about OOPS exam.

Boiling thoughts, aching legs, sore eyes, distant train horn blowing sound, deafening silence and looking for train arrival.

A Tiruthani train came to halt in the opposite platform. Few commuters started to unboard the train and walk towards the footpath. I could feel the vibration of the distant train. An express train in the unused EMU track was nearing the platform.

I could see a man walking in the middle of the track. He was about 100 meter from the platform. He was having a big consignement on his shoulder. I was expecting the person to move out the track on hearing the train horn, but still he continued with his lackluster walk. There was a complete buzz among the commuters on seeing the person. The train driver started to blow the horn hard. Still, the guy kept on walking in the middle of the track. By default, I started to yell loud. I knew that pitch was not enough to alarm a distant person. All the commuters started to shout loud.

High Volume train horn, huge commuters resonance; he still continued walking in middle of the track. He seems to be deaf. I tightened my screws, forgot to breathe and stopped screaming.

"I know, He is going to die"

The speeding train, just a hitting distance; What can I do?

My frozen thoughts made my body unmoved. why didn't I had a super power?

Then whole scene played in 4X slow. I kept my eyes wide opened hoping that person withdraws himself from the track at the last minute. The person was quite a distant from the platform. Huge roar from the commuters.

The train hit him from the back. I could hear a deafening cracking sound of his vertebrate. He was pulled under the train.

My eyes was forced to shut.

Tears started to trickle down. There was a total stillness. I could see all the commuters frozen cold. I turned towards the platform temple. Tears splashing the platforms.

Heavy puff of dust started to swirl in that place. The oscillating platform temple bells, few womens in tears praying & many shell shocked commuters.

I couldn't believe what I visualized.

My next thought was to know what happened to the person. The scene started to play in normal speed. My incisive eyes couldn't find the body of the person.

The driver started to apply break slowly. The train was approcahing the station for a halt. I could hear a rattling noise in the wheels of the train. Three piece of the body was thrown out of the train bogie.

It was a systematic surgery by the train wheels, dissecting an innocent person.

Few commuters, train driver and guard walked towards the human remains to see the state of the remains.

"I knew, he is dead."

Few passengers started to scream loud on witnessing the body.

Train towards Chennai central came to halt in my platform. I slowly board the train. I moved toward the adjacent door to see the remains of the person. My train started to move and was nearing the remains.

I could see the cut apart head, bleeding chin, red cram neck lying on the ground.

His wide opened eyes, seems to be starring at me.

what is he saying to me?

Is he asking "Why didn't you saved me?"

Slowly moving train, gazing with his eyes hard, shedding a drop of tears; I conveyed "Sorry.."

I slowly moved inside to take a seat. MY dead cells resisted to rejuvenate.

Few mins of closing eyes, blocked thoughts, helped me to breathe easily and create new cells.

What is the first thing I have to do?

"Acceptance of what has happened is the first step to overcoming the consequences of any misfortune."

Still, I have few Questions?

"Does a human remain have thoughts, feelings, belief, life..?"

"How could I give a life for a human remain..?"